16.0113-0900(px) I don't want to fuck this up!

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The RubberNaut (as of @25.1116 with 316,686 words)
00.00 Front pages
00.0100(px) FOREWARD
00.0102 Epistolary? What the hell is that? (Important!)
00.0121 ways to this epistolary parable could benefit you
00.0230 Author's Notes
00.0800 Mysticism
00.0900 About the AI's
00.00 IMPORANT!
2016: WHERE - HAHNESTERY (to PNR (Rabbit hole))
16.0101-0900(px) I need a job! (ver.1)
16.0101-1100(px3) The Hahnestery
16.0106-0900(px) Almost a week
16.0113-0900(px) I don't want to fuck this up!
16.0116 The job is settling down to 2-3 hours a day
16.0116-0900=ai=Meet Henry (Jame's brother)
16.0117-0900(px) My "quarters"!
16.0124-1010=ai= Why is Thalia well suited for isolation
16.0125-0900 Who is Henry Hahn
16.0124xy1003 Why is Thalia well suited for isolation
16.0201-0900(px) As predicted, I seldom worked past noon
16.0202
16.0211-9999 More About Frank
16.0213-0900 I'm not emotionally attached to my garments
16.0214-0900(px) Keyholder
16.0225-0900(px) The Apron
16.0305-0000 ______|||||| WHO IS LORRAINE? |||||______
16.0305-0900=ai= Who is Lorraine?
16.0305-0905 Lorraine was also a makeup artist
16.0305-0910(px) Loraine's Backstory
16.0305-0915=ai= Who is Lorraine?
16.0321-0900 - Thalia begins wearing 'stealth' rubber,
16.0405-0900(px) Spent whole life hiding fetish
16.0406-0900(px)=ai= Profile of James
16.0406-0900=ai= James was in a monastery
16.0503-0900(px) They _may_ know about my blog
16.0523-0900(px) The Logging company
16.0524-0900=ai= I live two lives in two worlds
16.0524-1000=ai= Otherness
16.0624-0900 James teaches me to meditate
16.0914-0900 Jx &Tx are my friend
16.1231 Discovered!
2017 - WHAT ENCHANTMENT - Hevea & Fetish Theory & Obsession
17.0 What actually happens or should happen IN THIS CHAPTER?
17.0000-0012 EXPAND THIS: Part of my life is In the Closet, deeply
17.0000-1200 What actually happens or should happen IN THIS CHAPTER?
17.0100-0000______||||| Who is Hevea ||||| (formerly Mistress_Hevea)_____
17.0101-0800(px) PNR -- Morning After
17.0101-0900=ai= Summary of Chapter 17: Enchantment
17.0101-0935 J&L call it an "Enchantment"
17.0102-0900 Enchantment - Magic Spell
17.0103-2235=ai= Rubber Fetish and the Quest for Self-Acceptance
17.0104-0900 Thalia reveals her fetish history
17.0105-0900_ai_Anthropology of 'Fetish'
17.0105-0910_ai_Anthropology of 'Fetish'
17.0105-0915_ai_ Anthropology of 'Fetish'
17.0106-1200 Lorraine asks Thalia to share fetish fantasies
17.0112-0900Years of repression
17.0107-0900 Hevea is a part of me.
17.0115-0816=ai= Lorraine invites M_H to dinner
17.0116 How do you want to live your life?
17.0121 The Hahns ask a lot of questions about
17.0122 Hahn-ish Curiosity
17.0125-0000__ |||||| THE GOAL - Rubber-colored Lenses |||||__
17.0125-0830 To see the world through rubber-colored lenses
17.0125-0900 To see the world through rubber-colored lenses
17.0125-0930 To see the world through rubber-colored lenses
17.0125-0945 To see the world through rubber-colored lenses
17.0125-1000 To see the world through rubber-colored lenses
17.0125-9901 The SensDep suit concept (Summary of)
17.0126-0900 The Timed Key Holder Boxes.
17.0201-0000___||||| HEVEA intro |||||__
17.0201-0900 Who is Mistress_Hevea_
17.0201-0930 Introducing, Hevea
17.0201-1000 Who is 'Hevea'?
17.0203-1100 M_H is Thalia_s sexuality but Thalia
17.0201-0900 invitation to dinner
17.0201-0930 I give my fetish a name (1st instance Hevea)
17.0203-0902=ai= James explains 'Tulpas'
17.0206-0900atx Why are helping me with my fetish?
17.0206-0910=ai= Why are helping me with my fetish?
17.0212-0000__|||||| Masochism ||||__Pleasure under duress
17.0212-0139=ai= Rubber Fetish as Masochism
17.0212-0830 Am I a masochist?
17.0212-0845=ai= Masochism aspects of Deep rubber fetish
17.0212-0900 Rubber Fetish as Masochism
17.0212-0905=ai= Rubber Fetish as Masochism and Enchantment
17.0212-0910=ai= Exploring the Masochism of My Rubber Fetish
17.0212-0910=ai= Rubber Fetish as Masochism
17.0212-0930=ai= Rubber Fetish as Masochism
17.0212-1000=ai= Pleasure Under Duress (masochism)
17.0212-0920 I'm a masochist
17.0213-0000__|||||||| Gimpness ||||||||__
17.0213-0800=ai=A general Theory of Gimpness
17.0213-0805 First time seeing a gimp?
17.0213-0807 Gimpness as an Artistic Expression
17.0213-0810=ai=A general Theory of Gimpness
17.0213-0815(px)=ai=A general Theory of Gimpness
17.0213-0900=ai= Gimpness
17.0213-0910=ai= Explain why Thalia is/is not a rubber gimp
17.0213-0923=ai= Gimpness is surrendering to your own depth
17.0213-0930=ai= Gimps explained /described
17.0213-1000=ai= Gimpness vs. 100%/100%
17.0213-1030=ai= Gimpness vs. 100%/100%
17.0213-0645 Main Interests
17.0214-0900(px) =ai= What is 'heavy rubber'?
17.0216-0900 Lorraine wants to _assist_
17.0217-1030 Hahn-ish Curiosity
17.0219-0900(px) It's love, not punishment or penance
17.0224-0900 My bookmarks to Lorraine
17.0224-0900 Pandora's Box of Rubberotica
17.0300-0000 __||||| INTERNAL SLAVERY |||||___
17.0213-1100 Logging Layers in HITEz: baths & vacations
17.0300-0900=ai= Thalia explains the idea of 'Internal Slavery'
17.0300-0901=ai= Thalia explains the idea of 'Internal Slavery'(condensed)
17.0300-1230 Internal Enslavement is all about _devotion
17.0300-1300=ai= Internal Enslavement and Hevea
17.0300-1330=ai= Applying InternaSlavery to rubber
17.0302-1000___||||| HEVEA as Dominatrix? ||||||___
17.0302-1007=ai= Is Hevea my Dominatrix?
17.0302-1020=ai= Is Hevea my Dominatrix?
17.0302-1030=ai= Is Hevea my Dominatrix?
17.0302-1040=ai= Is Hevea my Dominatrix?
17.0303-0900=ai= general concept of 'Deep rubber fetish' .md
17.0305-0900.1(px)=ai= - synthesis of Who is Lorraine?
17.0306-0000 ___||||| 100%/100% is OK ||||___
17.0306-1200 Lorraine asks Thalia to share fetish fantasies
17.0306-1205 Lorraine asks Thalia to share fetish fantasies
17.0306-1230 Invite to 100%/100%
17.0306-1245 Lorraine invites Hevea to dinner
17.0306-1300 Total Enclosure -- I'll do 90% X 2 all of the time
17.0306-1450 The Less-than 100%/100% Problem
17.0307-0900(px) Helping other Rubberists evolve
17.0308-0800 The Weighted Armbinder
17.0312-0900 OK to work in rubber
17.0313-0900 What does Hevea want? Rules?
17.0314-0900 is OK to wear rubber
17.0315-0900=ai= Monastery of Rubber and Spirituality
17.0316-0900 My Three Amigoes: Tom, Dick and Harry
17.0320-0900=ai= Objectification -- Why?
17.0321-0900 Hevea's Prime Directive
17.0404-0800(px) Hevea leads. I follow
17.0405-0800=ai= Hevea leads. I follow
17.0407-0800 constant state of sexual tension
17.0412-0900 Lorraine does leather crafts
17.0414-0800 Larry, the guy next door
17.0423-1200 I ride Sarah to the mailbox and grating
17.0426-0900 My SkinSuit
17.0502-0945 Hood as gift from Hahns
17.0512-0901=ai= Thalia does housework in her suit
17.0515.1_ai_ Fetish Monastery: A Journey into Self-Discovery
17.0519-0000___|||||| SOLO nature of fetish |||||||__
17.0519-0900=ai= Explain the solo nature of a fetish
17.0519-0910=ai= Explain the SOLO nature of a fetish
17.0519-0910=ai= Explain the SOLO nature of a fetish
17.0519-0920=ai= Explain the solo nature of a fetish
17.0520-0900=ai= Depth and Solo Nature of Thalia's Rubber fetish
17.0519-0900 Lorraine's bling appliques and suit repairs
17.0519-1056 Rubber Fetish Solo
17.0527-0800 Lorraine wants to play
17.0600___||||| TULPA |||||___
17.0600-0800 Hevea is the roommate in my head
17.0602-0900=ai= of EXAMPLE of narrative with Hevea
17.0605-0900=ai= Example dialogue:: Thalia and Hevea
17.0605-0910=ai= Example dialogue: Thalia and Hevea
17.0605-0915(px) Rubber fetish personified as a tulpa
17.0605-0930=ai= Example dialogue:: Thalia and Hevea
17.0612-0900 Is Hevea a Tulpa_ What is that
17.0607-0900 Finger on Hand of House
17.0608-0020 Hevea2Thalia dialogue examples.
17.0623-0900(px) What turns me on
17.0625-0901=ai= Wearing the 99.5_ TE suit
17.0627-0800=ai= Tell me a story about a rubber tree and a philosopher
17.0702-0800 Ideal skinsuit
17.0712-0845 Am I a masochist?
17.0712-0900(px) Frolicking
17.0806-0900(px) One picture is 1000 words
17.0816-0800 Happy
17.0900__||||| HITEz |||||___
17.0900-0645 HITEz: A Simple Way to Measure Rubber Experiences
17.0900-0700=ai= What the hell are HITEz?
17.0900-0800 What are HITEz?
17.0900-0815=ai= What the hell are HITEz?
17.0900-0830 HITEz are a metric of 100%/100%
17.0900-0845 HITEz are like money
17.0900-0900 HITEz; a metric of rubbering experience
17.0900-0945 Hitez are simply a measure of devotion to Hevea
17.0900-1025 HITEz: A Simple Way to Measure Rubber Experiences
17.0900-1300 consistency is important in a metric system...
17.0900-1945=ai= How HITEz can help fetish be a path to self-actualization
17.0900-1438 HITEz Rulez: the 'Prime Directive'
17.0900-1530 RuleZ for HITEz
17.0902-0000__||||| HITEz Quota System |||||___
17.0902-0800 What Hevea wants - a Quota system
17.0902-0900 =ai=HITEz Quota concept explored (dialogue)
17.0902-0907=ai= HITEz Quota concept explored (dialogue)
17.0902-1200 Quota fixation
17.0902-0900 if Fail to Meet Quota
17.0902-0907=ai= HITEz Quota concept explored (dialogue)
17.0905-0947 Homage vs. Veneration vs Worship
17.0906-0900 Anerobia
17.0906-0900.ai. HITEz are a form of Predicament Bondage.
17.0906-0901 Anerobia
17.0908-0900 I am 'sort of' in charge of what I wear & do
17.0912 I Become a Model
17.0913-0999=ai= The Grind - persistence
17.0915-0000 ___||||| the GRIND |||||___
17.0904-0900=ai= HITEz vs. The Grind
17.0904-0910=ai= HITEz vs. The Grind
17.0911_ai_MistralInstruct - the GRIND is mollific
17.0912-0900=ai= The Grind
17.0915-0800=ai= HITEz vs. The Grind
17.0915-0900 the GRIND is mollification to Hevea
17.0915-1005=ai= Quota is a motivator to overcome The Grind
17.0916=ai= the GRIND is mollification to Mistr
17.0916=ai= the GRIND is mollification t
17.0922=ai= What is relationshiop between HITEz and The Grind
17.0923=ai= Relationshiop between HITEz and The Grind
17.0915-1105 A mountain the must be climbed
17.0916.=ai= How does wearing rubber affect one's mental state
17.0917-0900(px)=ai= Masochism or rubbersexual?
17.0918-1000(px) Lorraine suggests wear her collars
17.0919 My life is based on HITEz
17.094-0900 HITEz provide Purpose and Meaning
17.1
17.1.1005-0910=ai= The 99.5_ Ordeal
17.1010-0800 Dreams - 'Fight Club'
17.1013 The Basic Idea of my Insanity
17.1017-0900(px) Adventure Mode
17.1023-9999 Keyholders
17.1027 Lorraine will help with HITEz quota
17.1105-0900 why Thalia likes edging
17.1109-0800 Dealing with Pee
17.1109-0830=ai= Dealing with Pee (dialogue)
17.1110-0800 The Lawyer made me do it
17.1112-1200=ai= describe riding a horse
17.1115-0800 my _safe_ room_
17.1115-1100(a) DISCOVERED BY RAMONA & grandson
17.1200-0800 =ai= Housekeeping
17.1201-0800 The Weighted Armbinder
17.1225-1200(px) Christmas Dinner
17.1225-1200=ai= Christmas Dinner
17.1225=ai=$ Remembering Coming Out - a year later
17.9 What M_H wants - a Quota system
2018: (MM) - LATEXISTENTIALISM - Finding Meaning (Spirituality) -CHAP NOTES
18.0000 What actually happens or should happen IN THIS CHAPTER?
18.0005 outline of the chapter 18
18.0010-0800 MM - TTOSBT - find Meaning in my Fetish (CHAPTER SYNOPSIS)
18.0101- 0901(px) Rubber is my _Enchantment_, This is
18.0105-0900=ai- RubberFLOW
18.0201-0800 Experience Design
18.0315-0800 What Hevea wants
18.0319-0800=ai= Theory of Total Enclosure
18.0401-0900(px) Cannot do 100%-100%
18.0600___||||| THE_ MIRROR -Grok - MOMENT |||||__
18.0601-0800 ****The_ Mirror Moment****
18.0601-0800=ai= How Thalia Relates to TTOSBT
18.0601-0900 Epiphany! I'm a RubberNaut!
18.0601-0900(px) It has been 18 months since my Coming Out
18.0601-0910=ai= GOAL: to 'go so far into my fetish I might come out the other side'
18.0601-0910=ai= GOAL: to 'go so far into my fetish I might come out the other side' (Duplicate)
18.0601-0935_ai_ how rubber fetish relates to
18.0601-1200_a.i_ Finding Meaning in My Fetish
18.0601-1203=ai= TTOSBT: My big epiphany
18.0601-1230 - Latexistentialism - Discovering
18.0601-2130=ai= How Thalia Relates to TTOSBT
18.0602-0900 Quest for Growth Through Rubber Fet
18.0602-0900(px) Slave collar
18.0603-0000__|||| the VOW |||||___
18.0603-0900 The VOW
18.0605-0000__||||| How Thalia Relates to TTOSBT |||||_no particular order
18.0605-0222=ai= How Thalia Relates to TTOSBT
18.0605-0930_ai_ how rubber fetish relates to TTOSBT
18.0605-1103=ai= .How Thalia applies TTOSBT to rubber fetish
18.0605-1300=ai= How Thalia Relates to TTOSBT
18.0605-1517=ai= How Thalia Relates to TTOSBT
18.0605-1519=ai= How Thalia Relates to TTOSBT
18.0605-1541=ai= How Thalia Relates to TTOSBT
18.0605-1542=ai= How Thalia Relates to TTOSBT
18.0605-1610=ai= THow Thalia Relates to TTOSBT (SUMMARY)
18.0605-1625=ai= How Thalia Relates to TTOSBT
18.0605-1630=ai= Thalia's Journal Entry
18.0605-1655=ai= How Thalia Relates to TTOSBT
18.0605-2126=ai= How Thalia Relates to TTOSBT
18.0605-2133=ai= How Thalia Relates to TTOSBT.md
18.0805-0251=ai= How Thalia Relates to TTOSBT.
18.0606-0900 Practicalities Intrude
18.0607-0900 I cannot do the 100%/100% Vow.
18.0607-0900 Taking baths
18.0608-0000 ___||||| Latexistentialism__|||||_____
18.0600-0100 NOTES from Latexistialism
18.0600-0960=ai=Explain Latexistenialism (10,50 and 100 words)
18.0608-0910=ai= explain 'latexistentialism' (localdocs=~27m wrds)
18.0608-0915=ai= Epxplain 'Latexistentialilsm'
18.0608-0920=ai= explain 'latexistentialism' (localdocs=26m wds)
18.0608-0925=ai= explain 'latexistentialism' (localdocs=26m wds)
18.0608-0930=ai= explain 'latexistentialism'
18.0608-0935=ai= explain 'latexistentialism' (localdocs=26m wds)
18.0608-0940=ai= explain 'latexistentialism'
18.0608-0942=ai= Explain Latexistentialism
18.0608-0945=ai= explain 'latexistentialism' (localdocs=26m wds)
18.0608-0950 =ai= Explain Latexistentialism
18.0608-0955 =ai= Explain Latexistentialism
18.0608.0023(px)=ai= Mysticism vs. Spirituality vs. Existentialism
18.0609-0900 Sensory Overload
18.0610-0900 Love- hate relationship with my fetish
18.0611-0900 Meaningless Pleasure
18.0615-0901_ai._ The Quest for Ataraxia
18.0701(px)=a= It's not a bug, it's a feature
18.0709-0900=ai= Spirituality is Quest for Meaning
18.0712-0800 Askēsis' is a Greek word that means "exercise" or "training."
18.0715-0900.99 She discovers some unexpected advantages to Enclosure
18.0715-0900(px) Cannot do 100%
18.0715.0001 Cosplay ideas
18.0801-0900(px) Lorraine's 'xBling' Jewelry
18.0816-0900 Orgasm Marathon
18.0913-0900 [[B.F.]] Obedience Through Pleasure.
18.1112-0900(px) Damp, cold environment
18.1121.0000 IDEA -I adopt Carpe Rubber Diem attitude
18.1202-0900 Protocols: penalty Months/bi-weeks
18.1225-1400=ai= Christmas Dinner
18.1225-1632$=ai= Christmas Dinner
18.1225$=ai= Christmas Dinner
18.1912-0800 MEMO from Hevea
2019: HOW - GOMU YOKU - The Art of Rubber FLOW
19.0 =ai= what is Gomu Yoku and how could SMART goals of FLOW be applied to it?
19.0000 What actually happens or should happen IN THIS CHAPTER?
19.0003-0900=ai= DEFS: Mysticism vs. Spirituality vs. Existentialism
19.0004-0900=ai=Explain the concept and practice of Gomu Yoku
19.0101-0930=ai= We develop the concept of Gomu Yoku
19.0105-0900=ai= Comparing Gomu Yoku with Yoga
19.0105-1000=ai= Which Type of Yoga Most Resembles Gomu Yoku?
19.0105-1000=ai= Which Type of Yoga Most Resembles Gomu Yoku?
19.0105-1100=ai= Speculating on a "Yoga of Deep Rubber Fetish"
19.0105-1200=ai= Is Gomu Yoku a Type of Yoga?
19.0106-0900=ai= How Gomu Yoku utilizes breathwork
19.0107-0900 =ai= Self-Actualisation is the primary goal of Gomu Yoku
19.02027-0930=ai= Rubber vs. Yoga
19.0209-0000_________||||| TANTRIC SHAMANISM ||||||_____
19.0209-1000=ai= Tantric shamanism
19.0209-1030=ai= Tantric Sexual Practices and Ethics
19.0209-1100=ai= What is Tantric Shamanism?
19.0222-1135=ai= How HITEz relate to FLOW?
19.0225-0000_________||||| RubberFLOW ||||_____
19.0225-0130=ai= Understanding FLOW and Its Relationship to Gomu Yoku
19.0225-0142=ai= RubberFLOW explained
19.0225-0211=ai= RubberFLOW explained
19.0225-0612=ai= RubberFLOW explained
19.0225-0900=ai= RubberFLOW explained
19.0225-0905=ai= RubberFLOW explained
19.0225-0920=ai= Flow and Its Relationship to Gomu Yoku
19.0225-1020=AI= Gomu Yoku = Finding Flow in Rubber and Nature
19.0225-2113=ai= RubberFLOW explained
19.0225-2127=ai= RubberFLOW explained
19.0225-2207=ai= Gomu Yoku and RubberFLOW explained
19.0225-0945=ai= Masochism as an Aspect of Deep Rubber Fetish
19.0225-1000=ai= Gomu Yoku as Experience Design for Peak Experiences
19.0225-1010=ai= Mysticism vs. Spirituality vs. Existentialism via DRF
19.0225-1030=AI= Gomu Yoku = Finding Flow in Rubber and Nature
19.0226-0900=ai=　　Whispers of the Forest: The Gomu Yoku Journey
19.0227-0900(px) A Yoga of Rubber
19.0227-0900(px)=ai= The Sacred Space of the Mirror
19.0228-0900 Rubber Sentience
19.0228-1000 Rubber Sentience
19.0228-0900 Sweeping is the key concept to TEMeditation.
19.0228-0910=ai=(px) Sweeping: A Meditation Practice in Total Rubber Enclosure
19.0306-0900 The Weighted Armbinder
19.0306-0900 =ai160= kink as tantric yoga
19.0312-0000______|||| GY as MARTIAL ART ||||____
19.0312-0900 Gomu Yoku as Martial Art
19.0312-0930=ai= Speculating on Gomu Yoku as a Martial Art
19.0312-1000(px)=ai= Is Gomu Yoku a martial art
19.0312-1030=ai= Similarities between Gomu Yoku, yoga, and Tai Chi
19.0312-1100=ai= Gomu Yoku, yoga, and Tai Chi
19.0411-0925=ai= Experience Design - Directing your own movie.
19.0415-0900=ai= How can kinky sex promote Individuation?
19.0501-0900 Gomu Yoku is Fetishamanism
19.0502-0900=ai= Thalia opens a shipment
19.0504-0227=ai= Working in Latex as Gomu Yoku
19.0504.0910(px)=ai= Housework in Latex: A Sensory Journey
19.0612-0900=ai= Effect of latex on Thalia's moods and energy
19.0721-0900=ai= Does wearing a latex suit create electrical capacitance?
19.0908-0800 Significance of setting SMART goals
20.0217-0239(px) Thalia's new suit
2020: WHY - RASP - Rubbering As a Spiritual Practice
17.0223-0908=ai= Rubber Fetish is Shamanism
20. =ai= Rubberspace = RubberFLOW
20.0 Spirituality is not something one finds; it is something one becomes
20.0000 What actually happens or should happen IN THIS CHAPTER?
20.0101-0110 WHY - RASP - Rubbering As a Spiritual Practice
20.0101-0900=ai= Rubber fetish as a spiritual practic
20.0101-0930-ai- What is spirituality?
20.0103-0000 _________||||| Deep Rubber Fetish Spirituality |||||
20.0103-1100 =ai= Grand Theory of Rubber Spirituality
20.0103-1118=ai= Grand Theory of Rubber Spirituality
20.0103-1135=ai= Explain 'rubber fetish spirituality'
20.0103-1145 Spirituality is a *Quest* to become *all* that you truly areSpirituality** is a Quest* to become *all* that you truly are
20.0103-1200 =ai= Grand Theory of Rubber Spirituality
20.0103-1214=aI= Grand Theory of how rubber fetish can be "spiritual".
20.0103-1300 =ai= Grande Theory of Rubber Fetish Spirituality
20.0103-1400 =ai= Grande Theory of Rubber Fetish Spirituality
20.0103-1500=AI= Explain 'rubber fetish spirituality'
20.0103-1510=AI= Explain "rubber fetish spirituality"
20.0103-1520=ai= Explain 'rubber fetish spirituality'
20.0103-1530=ai= Explain 'rubber fetish spirituality'
20.0103-1600=ai= What is 'Rubber Spirituaity'?
20.0103-1610=ai= What is 'Rubber Spirituaity'?
20.0103-1620=ai= Spirituality of Rubber Fetish (px)
20.0103-1630=ai= Grand Theory of Rubber Spirituality
20.0103-1700=ai= How can a fetish become spiritual?
20.0103-1715=ai= Grand Theory of how rubber fetish can be "spiritual"
20.0103-1805=ai= How is Thalia's fetish practice 'spiritual'?
20.0103-1900-=ai= explain how HITEz could be an instrument of spirituality
20.0103-1216=ai= A 'spirituality of deep rubber fetish'
20.0104-0900=ai= How is Thalia's fetish practice 'spiritual'?
20.0104-0900=ai= mysticism, tantra, shamaninism and existentialism
20.0104=ai= mysticism, tantra, shamanism and existentialism
20.0105-0900=ai= Thalia & Lorraine explore idea of Deep Rubber
20.0116-0220=ai= How can a rubber fetish be 'Erotic Mystical Shamanism'
20.0116-0745=ai= How can a rubber fetish be 'Erotic Mystical Shamanism'.
20.0121-0900=ai= Mysticism, tantra, shamaninism and existentialism
20.0121-0910=ai= how Thalia's journey demonstrates tantric shamanism
20.0121-0920=ai= how Thalia's journey demonstrates tantric shamanism
20.0124=ai= how Thalia's journey demonstrates tantric shamanism
20.0127-0900=ai= How HITEz relate to a spiritual journey
20.0130 ________||||| Rubberine/Rubberite |||||__________
20.0130-0800 What is an Anchorite?
20.0130-0900 The Concept of Nunk-hood is central RASP
20.0130-0900=ai= "Rubberite" vs "Anchorite"?
20.0130-0900=ai= Rubberite is both a noun and an adjective
20.0130-0901=ai= Explain "Rubberite"
20.0130-0932=ai= Becoming a Rubberite.
20.0130-1407=ai= How/why become a RubberNaut Anchorite
20.0200__________||||| MYSTICISM |||||_________ .
20.0200--1035-=ai= The Mysticism of Deep Rubber Fetish
20.0200-0900=ai= A mystical experience?
20.0208-0910=ai= Mysticism and Deep Rubber Fetish.
20.0208-0920=ai= Thalia's Rubber Mysticism.
20.0211-0900=ai= How Deep rubber fetish connects to mysticism.
20.0214-0900=ai= Mysticism and Rubber Fetish.
20.0214-1000=ai= Rubber-mysticism.
20.0208-0900(px) What is Rubber Centricism?
20.0301-0900=ai= Rubber as catalyst to consciousness
20.0301=ai= How HITEz can be an instrument of a spiritual practice
20.0302_______||||| TANTRIC SHAMANISM |||||______
20.0121-0830=ai= Explain Tantric Shamanism
20.0121-0835=ai= Explain Tantric Shamanism
20.0121-0930=ai= Tantra/shamanism
20.0302-0800 A Technologist of Altered States of Consciousness
20.0302-0900 =ai= Shamanism, tantra and rubber fetish
20.0302-0930=ai= Adapting core shamanism to rubber fetishism
20.0302-1130=ai= shamanism and tantra
20.0820-0900=ai= Tantric Rubber Fetish
20.0820-0900=ai= What is Tantra
20.0305-1200 (px) A Whole New Realm of Value{@25.0118}
20.0309-0812 Tantra! Foundation of Sacred Sex
20.0321-0900 =ai= Resonator of the Soul - Unveiling Rubber
20.0507-1902 James' brother was a monk in a monastery
20.0512-0900 Fetish as Advocation
20.0608-0943 ESSAY: Latexistentialism - Unveiling the Meaningful Dimensions of Fetish
20.0822-0900=ai= Rubber fetish as a 'resonator of the soul'
20.0822-0910=ai= Rubber fetish as a 'resonator of the soul'
20.0825-0900 House of Mirrors
20.0826-0900=ai= sitting before a mirror in nadu
20.1117-0900 Have I 'offiicially' self-actualized?
20.1201-1300 RASP ties it all together
20.1207-0900 OTR concept hatched
20.1231-0000 Well, did you learn anything?
20.1231-2400 Dear Marla -- the last emil.{@25.0118
20.1418-0900 SEED Going so far into my fetish...
30.00 META - Appendix
30.0032-0900=ai= Sensory Domestic Narrative (INFO)
30.0032-0910=ai= Sensory Domestic Narrative (INFO)
30.0032-0920=ai= Sensory Domestic Narrative (INFO)
30.1 ____________|||||| SYNOPSES |||||___________
30.0 =ai= Review of BR draft
30.5.2000 analyse and review the entire 'Becoming Rubber' story
30.2___||||| DRAMATIS PERSONAE |||||___
30.2.0100-0900=ai= META - Character profiles and relationships
30.2.0101 THALIA character
30.2.0102 JAMES
30.2.0103 LORRAINE
30.2.0104 HENRY
30.3. 00 _______LEXICON________
30.4.00 __||||| ORDEALS |||||____
18.0710-0000__||||| FUCK BOX ||||||___
18.0710-0000 =ai= The Sybian (notes about)
18.0710-0059 |||||| See more descriptions of Sybians in 30.0500
18.0710-0900=ai= Fuckbox
18.0710-0900=ai= The FuckBox
18.0710-0910=ai= Fuckbox
18.0710-0920=ai= Fuckbox
18.0710-1331 The FuckBox Fantasy
18.1013-0910=ai= Sybian training
18.1013-1040=ai= The Sybian
18.1013-1055=ai= Micro-perf hood
18.1013-1502=ai= The Sybian (Fucking my brains out)
18.1013-1524=ai= The Sybian
18.1013-1528=ai= The Sybian
18.1013-1533=ai= The Sybian
18.1013-1541=ai= The Sybian
18.1013-1550=ai= The Sybian
18.1013-1550=ai= The Sybian
18.1013-1553=ai= The Sybian
18.1013-1554=ai= The Sybian
30.5 ______GEAR & EQUIPMENT_____
18.1013-1500=ai= The Sybian
30.5.0200-0900=ai= Describe Sybian Orgasm. Detailed
30.5.1001=ai= Describe MotorBunny vs Sybian Orgasms
30.5.1005=ai= Describe Sybian Orgasm
30.5.1034=ai= Invent and design a sex machine
30.6 MISC
30.6-1 Determining the age of an elderly woman (chart)
30.6-2 Brief Age Estimation Guide for Elderly Women
30.7

16.0113-0900(px) I don't want to fuck this up!

@24.0911-1305.99 Atx

Dear Marla,

[[[　IDEA to develop:　not gonna wear any rubber except late at night.]]]

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